I anticipate vacations to be this get-away of a life-time. I anticipated an even more wise and grown-up feeling when I got married. And I anticipated our baby boy to be here on or before his due date. You're probably sitting there thinking, "why don't you just learn from all of this and let life go in stride?" And unfortunately, I don't have a good answer for that. But I can tell you that I imagined our little family of 3 (+ my family of 6, including me) to be together for Christmas this year. I've got Christmas outfits ready for the Cros and I made a new ornament for 2012 with 3 birds on it. I have a baby's first Christmas ornament wrapped up under the tree. C's stocking is hung between his Mommy and Daddy's. And it just makes me wilt to think that we may be spending Christmas with a bump instead of a baby.
I know, I know. I'm being quite negative and have a lot to be thankful for. I am thankful that as we wait, C is growing and developing. I am thankful that I am not experiencing much of anything negative from the pregnancy (except a case of the blues & being uncomfortable & not being able to wear regular clothes & not sleeping well). I am thankful to have the opportunity to conceive and to have gotten this far in the pregnancy with the both of us healthy. I am thankful for a supportive husband and family. I am thankful for the time off of work to get ready for our big boy and to rest up, although next go 'round, I think I'll work up until the last minute to help me to be more patient. I am thankful for a home that is warm and cozy and spattered with Christmas joy. And I am thankful for that little boy who was born 2,000 years ago - the reason we celebrate in December.